Kristi, I like Nate… a whole lot. I can’t stop thinking about him. I think he likes me too. (…I hope that you won’t tell all this dumb stuff to my future husband, later! How embarrassing!) My friends say that if I don’t start talking to him, he’ll loose interest in me (if he does like me…). So, even though I feel shy, I am going to try and talk to him more. I will find out what he likes and just be his friend. Tomorrow, I’m going to write him a note. I hope that’s a good start because tomorrow missionary week starts for seminary. I’m excited. I’ll tell you more about that later. Good night; wish me luck!
Love, Melonie
Kristi,
Hey, how are you? I can talk now so I’ll give you the details… Nate likes me for sure! I just found out today. He kept teasing me and one day, after church, I asked him why. He said, “Think about it.” …That really bugged me because I wasn’t sure what that meant. Little things like that would happen and then he would just ignore me.
Today at lunch he came and sat by all of us. He was really shy and didn’t know what to say. This morning, Dawn got the sudden erg to ask him if he liked me. He said, “yes”. She asked if he would ever “go out” with me. He didn’t answer but she says his face went red. She also told him that I like him! I was mad at her for a while!
Lidia and Dawn both say that if I don’t say something, he’s going to be taken. I’m scared. What should I say? He is nice and cute and very popular too. Why does he like me? Well, missionary week has started and I can’t write, call, or even talk to him for 9 days. Then, when the week is over, we have a regional dance.
Missionary week is a lot of responsibility. I have to wake up tomorrow at 6:30 on my day off! That’s what I don’t like about it. Well maybe I should go to bed now. Thanks for listening to me babble on about Nate. You’re Awesome!
Love you, Melonie
*All names have been changed in order to protect the privacy of those involved.
3/4/98
March 4 & 5, 1998
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