Hey Kristi,
How are you? Me? I don’t know. I’m kind of upset, scared and disappointed in myself. I don’t know, maybe they are normal feelings for a teenager to have… I hate being a teenager. I know that I am supposed to think of myself as an important, special person; a daughter of God but, for some reason, I don’t. Not right now.
Everyone is always mad at me. I screw up everything. I wish I would change. I’ve tried many times but I think it just ends up getting worse. Heavenly Father has given me so much. I wish I could at least make him proud of me for the person I am but I am not making very many good choices. I keep yelling at my brothers and sister for no reason, I disobeyed mom twice in two months and I’ve lied when I knew I could be in trouble. I don’t want to be like this! I hate myself!
We are going to my cousin’s baptism early in the morning tomorrow, so I’d better go to bed. My grandpa might be there. I’m scared of him.
Tomorrow I am going to start all over and be a better person. I hope it turns out well. I love you and I hope you love me too because I really need someone right now. Thanks Kristi.
Love, Melonie
(Age 15)
*All names have been changed in order to protect the privacy of those involved.
