Aug. 26th-28th the Young Men/Young Women went rafting on the
The 30th was the first day of school. I’ve had gobs of homework since then! It’s putting way too much stress on me and I can’t handle that right now so I decided to go on home study. This week will probably be my last.
My cousin came up and we went to the football game and saw Kyle (what a hunk! J) (I’m going to marry him… or at least someone like him!) Then we went camping on our property in Duchesne. There, we painted the shed, went swimming and late-night craw-dad fishing in the lake, played in the river and took mud baths! I had lots of fun. My cousin and I got closer as friends.
On Monday was our family reunion. Dad, Zach, my uncle and cousin all went to the Demolition Derby and the last night the boys found a scorpion in their tent!
Then, last night was the seminary Opening Social. It was fun. We cleaned up our school as a service project then had a concert by Greg Simpson! Jake kissed me again; this time with his tongue. It made me feel so awful. Why did I let him do it? I kind of liked him but I didn’t want to kiss him. I felt trapped, like he wouldn’t let me go back inside until he kissed me. Why did I go outside with him in the first place? A part of me knew what he wanted… I cried the rest of the night.
Noel is such a great friend. She made me feel lots better. I wish I were as good as her. I hope we’re always friends.
On the 29th of this month I am going to go see a hypnotherapist. He is supposed to help a lot. I can’t wait to go. What if he can make my pain go away? Then I can be normal again.
Melonie
(Age 16)
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